Surprise Party! Now it's over I can come back to blogging.....

I am not very good at keeping secrets, so it was hard for me over the last two weeks not to talk about it. Especially when he was disappointed that I hadn't done anything for him the weekend before. But thanks to everyone who kept it a secret we were able to surprise him and it went off without a hitch.

Over the last two weeks, lots of stuff has happened as always. I do not know what to put in here because it has been two weeks. Landon has been getting better with speaking and it has been great. Speech Pathologist Cheri has been giving us helpful hints and the iPad has been helping also.

Here are some pictures of the past two weeks.

As this week begins, so begins another month of trying to have another child. We took last month off and finished taking progesterone to induce a cycle this month, so I will be starting Femara this week. I have always taken Clomid but have discussed with my doctor about seeing what would happen with the change. One of our friends who recently had her own little blessing after years of trying was on Femara, so maybe it will work for us too. I know that it is not just my part that has to work, Nate's does too so hopefully the next few months proves to be our time.

I know that God has a plan and I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that another child may not be in the cards for us. It does sadden me but at the same time, I know that God's plan is what is best for me and I need to live my life with that reflecting outwardly for others to see. I have found with time that and healing that when I see other pregnant women, I am not as saddened by it and I am starting to not focus on that. It is not perfect but it is getting closer, only with God's help.

To continue in the thankfulness that this month represents, I just want to thank my husband, my family and all of the my friends who have been very supportive of me throughout this struggle in my life. I know that some may have been hurt by me when I was in a bitter/angry stage of grieving and for that I am truly sorry. But I am very thankful to have supportive friends who will listen, not judge, and be there for me, even if they have not had to deal with the same struggles. Their unconditional support and love for me never ceases to amaze me. I hope that I can be that good of a friend to them also.

Until next time...