Unexpected Day Off :)

Hello all, I am writing this because I unexpectedly got today off and thought I would use it to update my blog. I have not been very good about updating over the last month because it has been a crazy summer trying to keep up with a 2 year old.

Since I started this blog, I feel like I have grown in many ways concerning my miscarriage and infertility. It has been a very trying year since we started trying to conceive another miracle. I will be the first to admit that when I was pregnant with Landon, I did not relish in hearing his little heartbeat everytime that I heard it. If God provides me with another chance, I will probably get misty eyed every time I hear the heartbeat.

As I think about it now, it was a miracle that grew in my belly and I did not think of it as such until recently. We have been blessed by having Landon in our lives, but we do continue hoping for another miracle. Over these past few month and through this journey, I have shed many tears but I feel like this has helped the healing process.

At family camp, they played videos by James McDonald about trials. It helped me more than anything else has over these past few months. Everyone has trials, but it is how we rely on God through these trials that really matters.

I write about this because I feel like there are not many people that talk aabout the difficulty of trying to conceive. All you hear about are the success stories not the depressing stories. I feel more empowered by my fertility/infertility now than depressed by it and that is why I have decided to share our struggles.

I do have many friend and people I know that are pregnant and even though I am very excited for all of them, I do shed a few tears about where I am at in the journey. It is nothing personal against anyone who is pregnant because I know that this is what God wants for them. I still pray that it is what God wants for me also.

On a lighter note, today I got to spend a wonderful day with Landon. We went to the mall and went shopping for some winter clothes for him. He did absolutely wonderful so we went to the play area for awhile and even went to McDonald's for a happy meal.

Here he is playing on the pig in the play area. He was adorable and loved the pig, it was the only thing he wanted to play on.

Here he is riding the train that he wanted to ride really bad, until it started.

I love having extra days off to spend with the little guy and am truly blessed to have him in my life. I hope in time to be able to provide a sibling for him, but that will have to be in God's time. Thanks for tuning in for an update.