Crazy Week

Been awhile since I have posted and lots of things have happened. This week went by in a blurr, where to start. Thursday night we wrapped up our Chick Chat group by having dinner at Jose Peppers. It was a great way to finish our chick chat group, we didn't have all of the girls who came but most of them.

Then friday night came and I got to hang out with two of my best girlfriends, Ashley and Dara. Dara was in town from Wichita to plan her sisters baby shower. It was a wonderful evening of catching up and a much needed time with the girls. It was like I see Dara everyday and she let me vent and talk about all my issues. I have always said that my friends don't have fertility issues, which they do not, but it was very nice to have and know that my friends do want to know more about it. They will not judge me or tell me that I shouldn't talk about the fertility issues we have. Most of the time it seems like once I start talking about fertility issues walls come up. Dara and Ashley both have let me talk about it without judgement, along with other friends and I will be forever grateful to them.

Then Saturday morning my mother, husband, son and I went shopping in Lawrence. I was finally able to find some new shirts to wear because Topeka did not have anything I wanted.

Saturday afternoon, it all the sudden got really hot and this was the time that my father was going to run in the Warrior Dash. He is in great shape and works outside in the heat every weekend and runs a lot of evenings in the heat. I was not really worried about him, but at almost 4:45 my mom called me and said that Dad passed out at the finish line and that she should go up. I immediately hopped in the car and went to my parents house to go up to KC with my mom. Walking into the ER and seeing my Dad was very hard. He had suffered from heat stroke and was still very out of it when we showed up. Thankfully the EMT's responded very quickly with the ice and the IV fluids that he came around very quickly. It was scary to see him like that though, he is my father and I don't want to loose him, not yet.

When we were up in KC, there was a 28yr old and 31 year old who had also suffered heat stroke that day (along with >9 other; When my parents were checking out this morning, they were told that the 28yr looked like he was not going to make it. They were supposed to do the Warrior Dash again today, but thankfully they cancelled it due to the heat. It is crazy to me that you can go into this event and never go home. Sad, but I feel very blessed that my father is doind good, still has a bit of a road to recovery but God was watching out for him yesterday.

Until next time, I hope that the everything finds all of you well.

Swimming Lessons End........

Friday was the last day of swimming lessons and he had quite the on-lookers.  His Nana and Papa and his Dad.  He screamed a little more than he had all week but he is doing pretty good.  He still thinks that blowing bubbles in the water equates to sticking your tongue out into the water.  They want the kids to move their arms and legs together, which can take until the age of 5 to master.  Landon for sure mastered the kicking portion because that is all he wanted to do, especially if it involves splashing others. 

Here are some pictures.....

Here he is kicking when he wasn't supposed to, but at least he was kicking

Here he is trying to "blow bubbles"

Going off the diving board

Here he is getting out of the water, his favorite thing

Getting his treats from his teachers

It was bittersweet, but we will continue practicing until next year.  He has gotten better with the water, but still has a ways to go.

On another note, today's message at church was about People Pleasing and I could not help but to think about it's implications in my own life.  I have always been a people pleaser, never wanting to cause drama or a rift.  I feel like I have gotten better about this thanks to my husband but at times he can be a people pleaser.  What I need to do is to focus on who I really should be pleasing, God.  That is all that matters in the end.  I will always need to work on this, but at least I have a new direction.

Until next time......

Been Awhile...Time for another update

My birthday was on Monday and this weekend was filled with activities.  After date night on Saturday, we decided with the heat, how better to beat the heat then to go to the POOL!  On sunday, after my mother-in-law cooked me a wonderul lunch, we went to Shawnee North, which has a wonderful kiddy pool.  Landon just ran around and loved it.   Needless to say, Landons nap was a little late.  That evening we went to my parents for my birthday dinner there :) 

On Monday, I got to spend the entire day with Landon and most of the morning with my mother.  Exactly what I wanted on my birthday.  My parents even bought me new running shoes for my birthday!  Perfect present for my last year in my 20's.

Landon's last day of swimming lessons are tomorrow, the two weeks have flown by.  Landon has gotten better with the water, but he is still afraid to go under further than the bottom of his ears.  Baby steps, that is what I have to keep telling myself.  Baby steps, baby steps..............At least he has stopped screaming throughout the whole lessons.  Another good present for my birthday.

Life has been stressful, so for those of you reading these, if you could just pray for peace and God's will for our lives that would be much appreciated.  My husband and I are doing great.  Life doesn't always run the path we all would choose and sometimes bad things occur.

Birthday weekend!!!!

Even though my birthday is not until Monday, I have decided to take the whole weekend to celebrate.  When I am talking about celebrating, it is not going out and getting drunk but hanging out with friends and family.  It is funny what you consider a good time once you get married and start a family.  I am glad to have given up partying and taken up a toddler and that crazy life-style.

So far this weekend, Landon and I went to McDonalds for dinner last night, he loves chicken nuggets.  After that we went to Daddy's volleyball game, which was cancelled.  So instead we got to play in the sand, which has become a new favorite after being afraid of it for so long (thanks Nana for helping). Then we went and saw some real live horses at Aunt Katie's work and then onto Dairy Queen. Here are some pictures of our celebration.

Here we are at McDonald's

The nasty trashcan seemed like a good enough play toy

Grandpa Kaberline messing with Landon

This morning we went to Nana's for breakfast, biscuits and gravy.  It was amazing, thanks Nana.  Following breakfast we went over to Cafe Holiday to meet Kara (my brothers girlfriend) for a birthday lunch.  Landon LOVES Kara and was running all over the cafe, a little hyperactive.  He was having so much fun, so afterwards we went across the street to play on the play equipment.

Chocolate milk and biscuits and gravy.

Playing on the playground

Now tonight, dinner and a movie with my hubby.  Nana and Papa will be babysitting for us.  Date night, first one in a month.

Apologies

I want to start this post by apologizing to those that my infertility post may have offended.  I have just been overloaded with pregnant people since my miscarriage and I need to vent sometimes.  It was not my intent to offend or hurt any of my friends or family who are pregnant.  I am truly excited for you, but you have to understand that I am hurting and dealing with my loss.  I have up days and I have down days.  I know that the Lord is teaching things, mainly patience through this.  I have learned many lessons through this miscarriage and trials.  I have had many girls contact me and give me words of encouragement and share their stories with me.

I am sad to say that swimming lessons have not been going as good as the first day went.  Tonight my mother took Landon to swimming lessons because of family issues.  She said that he screamed from the moment he got into the water until he got out.  He did the same thing for me yesterday also.  I hope that it gets better but it probably won't. 

When we show up to swimming lessons he has a smile on his face and screams, "POOL" and runs towards it.  But screams when it is time to get in.  When we leave, he again smiles and says "Bye pool".  I do not know how to make it better.  It makes me smile to think about, toddlers :)

Landon has brought Nate and I so much joy and life could be so different without him.  But everyday is an adventure and that is what is so great about having a toddler.  He smiles at the simpliest things.  For example, his favorite game to play it putting a blanket over his head and running around, hitting everything.  Why a blanket is a favorite, I do not know but I love it :)  I thank God everyday for Landon, even at swimming lessons when he is the only child screaming.

I hope that this post finds everyone well.

Reproductive Endocrinologist

Today was my appointment with the RE, Dr. Stewart in Kansas City.  I was nervous and excited to see a specialist in reproductive medicine.  My mother was nice enough to come to the appointment with me.  Going into the appointment I knew that what Dr. Gleason had been doing had been working with me to get pregnant, but I wanted to know what the best treatment options were for me when I was no longer interested in getting pregnant.

Currently I am taking Clomid to "trick" my mind into making my ovaries produce eggs, in Dr. Stewart's words.  Since I am in the middle of a cycle prescribed my Dr. Gleason, they stated that my insurance may not consider it a consultation :( and that the visit may not be covered.  Insurance companies can be a little ridiculous if you ask me, but back to the appointment.

Dr. Stewart advised me that each month, when you ovulate, you only have a 9% chance of getting pregnant.  It is a miracle that anyone ever gets pregnant, but we all know it happens.  He made PCOS sound very simple and I guess in the long run, it is a very simple form of infertility to treat compared to other forms. I feel like he put my mind at ease.  Since I am on CD 15, he advised me that he would do an ultrasound and tell me when I would ovulate.  It is not covered by insurance but for peace of mind and to know when I would ovulate, we went ahead and did it.  I have never know when I ovulate and with PCOS it can be hard to know.  I feel like this gave me a peace also. 

God has a plan for all of us and He knows what is best for us.  He is teaching me a lesson in patience and humility that I need to learn.  I have been very blessed with Landon and every day I just stare in wonder at Landon and love him even more.

Through this blog, I have already received support that I would never have known about and am thankful that God lead me to start this.  I pray that through my struggles and trials that God will use me for His will.  There are many girls out there that deal with for many years and most people do not even know that they do. 

On a lighter note, when we got home and Landon and I were hanging out.  He started straining and I asked him, are you pooping?  He looked straight and me, smiled and stated loudly, "NO."  But I decided to check his diaper and in there laid a nice pile of poop :)  So funny

Swimming lessons begin......

So tonight was the first night of swimming lessons.  Landon basically wanted to sit on the side of the pool and kick in the water.  Bue he did get in and kicked his legs on his back and stomach.  He was not a big fan of blowing bubbles or moving his arms, but he would kick and kick.  I told him if he was good that we would go to Sonic afterwards, may have to be a nightly thing during swimming lessons.

At the end of lessons, he got to play and all he wanted was the thermometer that was in the shape of a car.  So being the good mother I am, I bribed him to go jump of the diving board by telling him that he could play with the car if he did it.  He got very determined at that point, marched up to the diving board and let the swim teachers "jump" him off the diving board.  He then proceeded to tear the car thermometer off of the pool and throw it in.  We apologized and left, but we will be back daily for 2 weeks.  I hope to see improvement.  Here is a picture of him with his slush afterwards.

Loving him some Grape slush

Tomorrow is my first appointment with the reproductive specialist.  I will update again after that appointment.

Infertility Vent

I wasn't planning on writing today but I have to say that when you struggle with infertility, FB will make those challenges even worse.  I never thought about all the posts about pregnancy until I was face with infertility issues.  Every time that I get onto facebook and see post about happy pregnancies, I just get even more frustrated.   I do not care that your baby is the size of a pea or whatever size it is.  I am happy for you that you are pregnant but all the other posts seem like a slap in my face since I have a HARD time getting pregnant.  I know that this should not matter because God will provide in His time, but it is hard to wait.

Going through this experience has definitely made me more sensitive about posts on FB and all other areas of life.  I know God has a plan for my family and He will provide.

Sorry I had to vent about infertility.  I do not know who is reading this but I needed to get this off my chest.

Frickey Wedding

Here goes my second post, two in one day!!  Big time Blogger

This evening we went to my cousins wedding in the camp grounds, Travis and Doreen.  It was a simple ceremony and filled with tie dye.  Here are some pictures

The bride

Their first kiss as man and wife

The wedding party

The Play Area at the Camp Grounds.  Landon could not wait to play on this.

We had some good times

He LOVED the slide!!

We had some bad time also.  He was very sad that Dad took his marker away :(

We enjoyed ourselves and Landon loved to play on the play equipment.  There was a very steep slide there at the very top.  Landon of course wanted to go up to the VERY top and go down the steepest slide there, again and again.  It wasn't too bad for Landon because he doesn't go down the slide very fast.  He hasn't figured out that the best way to go down the slide is to lean back.

They had a board there for all of us to sign, and they provided many different colors of permanent markers.  Landon is at a stage where he love to write on paper, so Nana gave him a piece of paper to color on and Daddy gave him a marker.  The marker ended up on Landon's shirt.  Needless to say, it is soaking now and hopefully the marker will come out.

Congrats to Travis and Doreen Frickey!!  May you have many years of blessings and happiness.  You two are a very good fit and I am glad that you found each other.

Welcome to the blogging world

I decided to join the technology age and make a blog.  This is a good way to keep track of going on's in our lives and keep up on where Landon is.  First let me introduce the family

Landon at Red Robin on his Second Birthday

The family: Nathan, Landon, GiGi, and me (Katie)

This was in April for my Grandma's 80th

Our Labradoodle Penny

My loving husband, Nathan

Our Bichon Poodle Allie, she is our little lover

Landon on the fourth this year climbing over the seats in our car

Here is some background for those of you who do not know.  Nate and I went to kindergarten together at CPLS and then grew up together at TBC.  We were good friends throughout high school, even though he would never ask me out.  We finally reconnected at a wedding and 3 months later we had our first date.  One year later we got married, Dec 2, 2006 and on May 27th, 2009 we welcomed our son into the world.  Life has been hectic ever since but could not even dream of a world without the two of them. 

Landon just turned two a month ago and still is not talking.  He is saying one word and is refusing to string words together.  We are at the point where we are deciding whether or not to refer him to speech specialist.  He will say ball and other words with prompting but he doesn't seem to want to speak more.  He babbles but we are unable to make out what he says.  It is a fine line.  Dr. Cooley recommends that we wait and see, boys are always behind but I feel like he should be talking more.

Most people that know us do not know that in January we found out we were expecting baby #2 in October, which is a big deal for us because I have PCOS(Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and I do not ovulate on my own.  We conceive both Landon and baby #2 on Clomid.  We were so excited and thought we were out of the woods for a miscarriage when we hit the 10weeks mark, but when we went to the doctor March 11th, we found out we had a miscarriage around 6 weeks.  It was devastating.  We have begun the healing process and are trying again.

This time around, I decided that it was time to go and see a RE (reproductive endocronologist).  We have decided that it was the right time to go see a specialist.  I have decided that I need to find out more about PCOS and treatment.  Plus hopefully the RE will help us conceive #2.  Our appointment with Dr. Stewart is going to be next tuesday, July 12th.

We know that God had a plan for us.  The hardest part of that is not knowing the plan.  We may just have one child or we may be blessed with more.  Only God knows where He wants us to go. We just ask for prayers for peace and patience as we see others around us get pregnant and have healthy pregnancies.  It is not that we are not happy for others, we are, but we want this for ourselves too.

I hope to keep up with this weekly and blog about our journey through life.